Anger

I am just so angry right now

I'm angry there's no "How much longer have you got" or "Are you still going"s

I'm angry my womb is empty

I'm angry there are no "Congratulations"

I'm angry there is no baby crying

I'm angry my arms are empty

I'm angry my life will never be the same

I'm angry that my husbands life will never be the same

I'm angry my earthly children's lives will never be the same

I'm angry that our hearts will never fully heal

I'm angry that after one "I'm sorry for your loss" there is only silence

I'm angry that people never mention his name

I'm angry that people pretend that he never existed

I'm angry that when I dare to mention his name there is only silence

I'm angry that when I bring up his existence others turn away

But mostly I'm angry that my baby died.